Tuesday, March 15, 2011

NO ROOM FOR COMPLAINTS

IM HAPPY, NOT THT UR AWAY FRM ME, BUT FOR THE SIMPLE FACT I CAN STILL WRITE U EVERYDAY AND FEEL AS THO I CAN STILL TELL U HOW MY DAYS ARE, EVEN THO I CANT HEAR FRM U EVERYDAY, EACH EMAIL I RECIEVE IS PRECIOUS TO ME, KINNA LIKE OPENING A PRESENT ON CHRISTMAS EVE, I JUS CANT WAIT TO OPEN IT UP ND SEE WUT U WROTE ME, GOD HAS HIS PLAN FOR OUR RELATIONSHIP, I BELIEVE THT WIT MY HEART...WEN I LAY EVERYTHING OUT, IT ALL COMES TOGETHER IN ONE PIECE, EVEN THO WE WONT C EACH OTHER FOR A WHILE, U STILL MANAGE TO MAKE ME HAPPY ND SMILE EACH ND EVERYDAY...U FILL MY DAYS WITH WARMTH, U FILL MY MIND WITH WONDERS, ND U FILL MY NITES WITH BEAUTIFUL DREAMS. I DON KNO WUT GOD HAS PLAN FOR MY FUTURE, BUT ONE THING I DO KNO FORSURE, IS HE HAS U IN IT WITH ME. THANK U SEAN FOR BEIN MINE, I HAV NO ROOM FOR COMPLAINTS, UR TRULY THE MAN OF MY DREAMS. I LOVE U, LOVE YOUR LOVE! MMUAH!

Sunday, February 27, 2011

WHO I HAVE BECOME

I AM...
THE WOMAN LOOKING OUT HER WINDOW WIT TEARS EACH NITE PRAYING FOR A MARINE THATS ACROSS THE WORLD FROM HER
THE WOMAN VIEWING MARINE VIDEOS ON YOUTUBE AT ODD HOURS OF THE NITE, TO FIND ANY TYPA COMFORT FOR THAT LONESOME FEELING
IM THE ONE WHO SPOTS A MARINE STICKER,LICENSE PLATE,UNIFORM,OR FLAG, AND FEELS A RISE IN MY HEART
THE WOMAN WHO HUGS HER STUFFED ANIMAL EACH NITE FOR COMFORT,PRETENDING YOU ARE RITE NEXT TO ME
THE WOMAN WHOSE EARS OPEN UP ANYWHERE AND ANYTIME MILITARY CONVERSATIONS ARE BROUGHT UP
I AM THE ONE WHO CHECKS HER MAILBOX EACH DAY IN HOPES TO FIND A LETTER OR A POSTCARD
THE ONE WHO CHECKS HER EMAILS EVERY OTHER HOUR TO MAKE SURE I HAVENT MISSED ONE FROM YOU
THE WOMAN WHO LOOKS AT HER FONE AND PLAYS THE LAST VIDEOS OF YOU OVER AND OVER
THE WOMAN LOOKING AT OTHER COUPLES,WISHING IT WERE  YOU AND ME
I AM THE WOMAN WHO WRITES HER HEART OUT ON A BLOG PAGE TO VENT AND FEEL LIKE IM SPEAKING TO YOU
I AM THE WOMAN THAT IS WAITING FAITHFULLY FOR YOU TO RETURN HOME, NO MATTER HOW LONG IT MAY BE
BUT MOST IMPORTANT, I AM A WOMAN WHO IS LOVED BY A SELFLESS, BRAVE, GOD LOVING MARINE!
I COULDNT HAVE ASKED FOR A MORE LOVING PERSON TO BE IN MY LIFE, I MISS U BABY, AND I CANT SAY IT ENUF, IM PROUD OF YOU, I LOVE YOU. ALTHO IVE BEEN CRYING AND BEARING THIS PAIN, I KNO IT WILL ALL DISAPPEAR ONCE IM IN YOUR ARMS AGAIN...EACH NEW DAY BRINGS US CLOSER TOGETHER...SEE YOU SOON BEB..
                                                                                                                        LOVE,YOUR LOVE

Thursday, February 24, 2011

END OF THE OTHA LINE....

I OFTEN FIND MYSELF ACCUMULATING SO MANY THINGS I WANA TELL YOU, EACH DAY ADDS ON A NEW TOPIC, ITS TOUGH...YOU KNOW, NOT HAVING ANY  WAY TO ACTUALLY CONTACT YOU WEN I WANT...OR NOT KNOWIN WEN IM GON HEAR FRM YOU, WUT KEEPS ME GOIN IS FAITH, KNOWING IM ON UR MIND EACH DAY JUS AS YOU ARE ON MINE. I REMIND MYSELF DAILY OF WUT A GREAT PERSON YOU ARE, NOT ONLY FOR ME, BUT FOR EVERYONE UR FIGHTING FOR. YOU MAKE ME SO PROUD. ITS NOT AS DIFFICULT AS I THOUGHT IT WUD B TO B WITHOUT YOU, ITS EVEN HARDER..I KEEP YOU CLOSE EACH NITE WITH A PRAYER...IM EITHER SLEEPIN IN YOUR SHIRT THAT YOU LEFT BEHIND, EVEN THE SHORTS =)...AND IM ALWAYS SLEEPING WITH "LIL SEAN" (LION)....AND AS SOON AS I FALL ASLEEP, I FALL INTO YOU....UVE BEEN IN MY DREAMS SINCE THE DAY AFTER I LAST SEEN YOU, I NEVER BELIEVED ONE CUD CONTROL HIS/HER DREAMS, BUT IM MANAGING TO MAKE IT A POINT UR ALWAYS IN THERE WITH ME....ITS NOT AN EASY PROCESS, BUT IM LEARNING TO DEAL WITH THIS, AT FIRST IT TOOK ME A FEW TIMES TO CALL YOUR FONE AND HEAR IT DISCONNECTED BEFORE I ACCEPTED IT, NOW IT CAME DOWN TO CHECKING MY EMAIL EVERY SO OFTEN DURING THE DAY EVEN THOUGH I KNOW I MITE NOT HEAR FROM YOU TILL ANOTHER WEEK OR SO, IF THERES ANYTHING ID LIKE TO TELL YOU, IT WOULD BE; IF I COULD TURN BACK TIME, I WUD MAKE IT SO I CUDA ANSWERED UR FIRST CALL, THE MOST IMPORTANT CALL! WUT ID DO JUST TO HEAR YOUR VOICE RITE NOW! I PLAY THE VIDEOS I RECORDED OF OUR LAST MOMENTS..THEY BRIGHTEN MY DAY EACH TIME I VIEW IT...AS I WAS SAYIN EARLIER, YOU NEVER FAIL TO B ON MIND, AND IT HURTS TO FEEL LIKE I WANA TELL YOU SO MUCH YET I HAVE NO CONTROL TO DO SO...EVEN JUST TO SIMPLY SAY, I LOVE YOU....I MISS YOU...CUZ I DO, AND I WISH I COULD DIRECTLY TELL YOU THAT EVERYDAY, IM STANDIN STRONG BEB, TILL THE DAY WE SEE EACH OTHER AGAIN....ALTHO UR NOT ON THE OTHER END OF THE LINE ON THE FONE WITH ME....UR ALWAYS THERE AT THE OTHER END OF THE LINE OF MY HEART...LOVE YOU BEB, LOVE ALWAYS, YOUR LOVE...

Monday, February 21, 2011

....A GOODNITE'S DREAM

I HAVE NO WORDS LEFT TO SPEAK, ITS TOO QUIET, AND MY THOUGHTS RUN MILES OF DISTANCE. I CANT HELP BUT TO LIE HERE IN BED AND STARE AT ONE SPOT FOR HOURS, THERES NOTHIN AND NO ONE HERE BUT I CAN SEE YOU BEB, I CAN FEEL YOU, THINKING OF YOU OCCUPIES MY FREE TIME. ITS ALMOST LIKE IM WATCHING A MOVIE, AN INVOLUNTARY VISION OF YOU, UP AND FAR IN THE SKY NEAR THE STARS,FLYIN FURTHER ND FURTHER AWAY AS EACH SECOND PASSES, THINKING OF ME WHILE IM THINKING OF YOU....TWO PEOPLE THAT FELL IN THE SAME HOLE CALLED LOVE, FAR AWAY YET STILL CLOSE TO EACH OTHER, AS I LAY MY HEAD ON MY PILLOW AND STARE INTO A THOUSAND MILES, MY EYES BLINK AT A SLOWER MOTION.THEY BECOME HEAVIER AS SECONDS DRAW IN TIME,.THEN I SEE YOU RITE NEXT TO ME, VISITING ME IN MY DREAMS, ALTHO YOUR FAR AWAY BABY, ILL TAKE THE PLEASURE OF MEETING YOU EACH AND EVERY NITE AS I THINK OF YOU AND FALL INTO A BEAUTIFUL DREAM, YOUR MY ONE AND ONLY, TODAY MAY HAVE BEEN MY LAST OF HOLDING YOU CLOSE, KISSING YOU, AND HEARING YOUR VOICE UNTIL I CAN SEE YOU AGAIN,BUT IM THANKFUL GOD CREATED THE ART OF DREAMING, IM ABLE TO MEET YOU EACH NITE, I LOVE YOU SEAN, IM MISSING YOU MORE THAN EVER, LOVE, YOUR LOVE!

Tuesday, January 25, 2011

REALITY HIT ME

LAST NITE AS I LAY MY HEAD TO SLEEP, MY MIND OCCUPIED WITH THOUGHTS AND WONDERS OF HIM, HOW IS HE DOING, IS HE WARM OUT IN THE OPEN WHILE I SLEEP HERE WARM IN MY SHEETS, IS HE WELL RESTED WHILE I HAVE THE ABILITY TO SLEEP IN TILL GOD KNOWS WEN...HAS HE ATE..WHILE I CAN JUS WALK OVER TO THE FRIDGE NE MOMENT WENEVER I PLEASE...Y DID THEY HAVE TO TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME FOR ABOUT A WEEK  KNOWING THAT THESE MARINES HAVE LESS THAN A MONTH TO SPEND WITH THEIR LOVED ONES BEFORE THEY LEAVE THEM AGAIN FOR 6 MONTHS?! SO AS I LAY THERE I THOUGHT, THIS IS HOW ITS GOIN TO B...FLASHBACKS RAN THROUGH MY HEAD OF OUR LAST HUG, KISS, I LOVE YOU..ND FONE CALL, MY FIRST TEARS CAME OUT AS I LAID THERE IN PAIN THINKN BOUT HOW OUR LAST DAY WILL B TOGETHER.THIS HIT ME A LOT SOONER THAN I EXPECTED, I DIDN THINK I WAS GOIN TO CRY TILL THE DAY HE LEAVES, MY EYES ALWAYS WATERED BUT THE TEARS NEVER FELL, AS THEY FELL LAST NITE, I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT REALITY HIT ME...WEN HE COMES BACK FRIDAY I WILL CONTINUE TO CHERISH EACH GIVEN MOMENT WE HAVE TOGETHER, THESE R THE DAYS WE CAN LOOK BACK AT WHILE WE R APART AND SMILE OUT OF NO WHERE FROM JUS THE SIMPLE THOUGHT OF A MOMENT WE SHARED TOGETHER. GOD HAS REALLY BLESSED ME LAST YEAR WITH THE MAN IVE BEEN PRAYING FOR, SEAN YOU TRULY COMPLETE ME, THIS  SEPARATION CAN ONLY STRENGTHEN US,  I REFUSE TO THINK ANY NEGATIVE THOUGHTS REGARDING OUR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER , ESPECIALLY WHILE UR GONE, I GIVE YOU MY TRUST, MY LOVE, MY THOUGHTS,MY TEARS, MY PRAYERS, AND MY HEART, IMA MISS YOU MORE THAN EVER TO THE POINT IT HURTS, IM WILLING TO PULL THRU BECAUSE WE MAKE EVERTHIN IN LIFE WORTHWHILE, NO MATTA HOW LONG, HOW FAR YOU LEAVE, ,JUS KNOW THERES A LIL LADY NAMED CHRISTINA WAITING FOR U IN CALIFORNIA...I LOVE YOU....LOVE, YOUR LOVE

Thursday, January 20, 2011

A MONTH LEFT TO REMEMBER

ONLY A MONTH LEFT, IT BARELY HIT ME TODAY, OUR 7 MONTH ANNIVERSARY, THAT ON OUR 8TH MONTH OF BEING TOGETHER, HE WILL BE LEAVING ME. MY EYES WATER JUS THINKN ABOUT LETTING HIM GO FOR SIX MONTHS. GOD PLACED US TOGETHER AND IM MORE THAN SURE HE KNOWS THIS IS SOMETHING SEAN ND I HAVE TO GO THROUGH TOGETHER. WEVE HAD OUR UPS AND DOWNS AND MADE IT THROUGH OUR MOUNTAINS AND SUNNY DAYS, WE WILL PULL THROUGH TILL THE DAY I GET TO BE IN HIS ARMS AGAIN....AS THIS DAY MARKS AN EXACT MONTH TILL HES GONE, EACH AND EVERYDAY AFTER WILL MEAN MORE THAN EVER, EACH MOMENT I SPEND WITH HIM IS CHERISHED....BUT THERE WILL BE NOTHING COMPARED TO OUR LAST DAYS BEFORE HE DEPLOYS. ALTHO SOME BELIEVE SEPARATION BRINGS DISTANCE, I BELIEVE ITLL BRING US CLOSER...A LOVE LIKE OURS IS UNCOMPARABLE TO ANY OTHER, OUR LOVE IS SPECIAL,UNIQUE,AND FOREVER, I WILL MISS YOU SEAN, AND U WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY PRAYERS! LETS MAKE THIS THE BEST MONTH WE EVA HAD!!! LOVE, YOUR LOVE