REALITY HIT ME

LAST NITE AS I LAY MY HEAD TO SLEEP, MY MIND OCCUPIED WITH THOUGHTS AND WONDERS OF HIM, HOW IS HE DOING, IS HE WARM OUT IN THE OPEN WHILE I SLEEP HERE WARM IN MY SHEETS, IS HE WELL RESTED WHILE I HAVE THE ABILITY TO SLEEP IN TILL GOD KNOWS WEN...HAS HE ATE..WHILE I CAN JUS WALK OVER TO THE FRIDGE NE MOMENT WENEVER I PLEASE...Y DID THEY HAVE TO TAKE HIM AWAY FROM ME FOR ABOUT A WEEK  KNOWING THAT THESE MARINES HAVE LESS THAN A MONTH TO SPEND WITH THEIR LOVED ONES BEFORE THEY LEAVE THEM AGAIN FOR 6 MONTHS?! SO AS I LAY THERE I THOUGHT, THIS IS HOW ITS GOIN TO B...FLASHBACKS RAN THROUGH MY HEAD OF OUR LAST HUG, KISS, I LOVE YOU..ND FONE CALL, MY FIRST TEARS CAME OUT AS I LAID THERE IN PAIN THINKN BOUT HOW OUR LAST DAY WILL B TOGETHER.THIS HIT ME A LOT SOONER THAN I EXPECTED, I DIDN THINK I WAS GOIN TO CRY TILL THE DAY HE LEAVES, MY EYES ALWAYS WATERED BUT THE TEARS NEVER FELL, AS THEY FELL LAST NITE, I CAME TO THE CONCLUSION THAT REALITY HIT ME...WEN HE COMES BACK FRIDAY I WILL CONTINUE TO CHERISH EACH GIVEN MOMENT WE HAVE TOGETHER, THESE R THE DAYS WE CAN LOOK BACK AT WHILE WE R APART AND SMILE OUT OF NO WHERE FROM JUS THE SIMPLE THOUGHT OF A MOMENT WE SHARED TOGETHER. GOD HAS REALLY BLESSED ME LAST YEAR WITH THE MAN IVE BEEN PRAYING FOR, SEAN YOU TRULY COMPLETE ME, THIS  SEPARATION CAN ONLY STRENGTHEN US,  I REFUSE TO THINK ANY NEGATIVE THOUGHTS REGARDING OUR LOVE FOR EACH OTHER , ESPECIALLY WHILE UR GONE, I GIVE YOU MY TRUST, MY LOVE, MY THOUGHTS,MY TEARS, MY PRAYERS, AND MY HEART, IMA MISS YOU MORE THAN EVER TO THE POINT IT HURTS, IM WILLING TO PULL THRU BECAUSE WE MAKE EVERTHIN IN LIFE WORTHWHILE, NO MATTA HOW LONG, HOW FAR YOU LEAVE, ,JUS KNOW THERES A LIL LADY NAMED CHRISTINA WAITING FOR U IN CALIFORNIA...I LOVE YOU....LOVE, YOUR LOVE